Monday, July 28, 2008
7:51 PM
just finished classes;i'm exhausted physically.
yet i'm all pumped out to do well.
yup, pops has been sharing the fact that he feels i'm not working hard enough, with.. people.
I guess he doesn't understand currently, that sometimes, your achievements aren't solely based on that singular alphabet. Instead, it's the whole journey of self-betterment as a human that truly counts. BUT, this little bonanza doesn't dampen my spirits. It takes more than what other people think, their judgments and all; Simply because I believe in myself and what I do. And I call it a bonanza because it just fuels my fighting spirit in this race; Why take into consideration of other people's views on your life (note: how many years have they known you for? you're your friend for like (insert your age here) years, surely you have the clearest views) and let them screw up your confidence? Fight them, be strong, and seriously, there are some people in your life you can do without. I'm not asking you to walk away from these people, just don't make someone a priority when they only make you an option. ;)
6 weeks.
I've never been more ready to make this right.
"So what makes you stand out from the typical A level graduate?"
That Mr Lee Kong Chian, is the fact that I earned these grades, while having the time of my life.
(hell yea)
and i love you too, mister you-know-who. ;)
AND AND, i want my cheap oh-so-entertaining thrill tonight!!
OKAY. WORK WORK TONIGHT. (:
(kisses)
Sunday, July 27, 2008
8:43 PM
I've come to a realization that there're alot of "people" reading my blog.HAHA.Once I find a beautiful skin for my livejournal,i'm moving ;)I'm not giving details yet, but i had a whopping wiccckkkkeeed weekend;(winks with an... all-knowing smile)and SINGFESTTTT.ARGHEGQEGEHQEGEGFQEHF.I've the best girl in the world, dammit!(restrains myself from screaming and drown myself in 42below)so before i wham out nova seth for the weekend,imma work my butts off for the next 5 days.Play hard? This girl needs to study even harder. ;)I'm on a high;Okay, let me rush back to economics essssaaays and continue my mental orgasmic experience with international trade, hahahhaa... i'm serious!with big ass kisses,novvaa seth. (:p.s thanks for all the get well soon wishes, all the presents, cards and messages; you guys are the sweetest and you have no idea how much it touched me! :'( i'm much much better already after the change in medicine, all recharged for school and its (mumbles) exciting agendas! (:
much love!
Thursday, July 24, 2008
9:28 PM
I'd give anything in the world,
to remember this lesson.
The lesson that helped me truly understand,
that the richest ones in the world,
are not the ones who have the most;
but are in fact, the ones who need the least.
And right now,
all I need is my family, my lil sister and the close friends that i treasure with all my heart,
my health to come back to me, and happiness for everyone to a last a lifetime.
No amounts of quid, not even that darn sexy lamborghini gallardo spyder can make me anymore happier than I could ever be.
well, okay, maybe Christian Bale. (squeals)
And Lastly, my dear friends.
Always, always be yourselves.
For life's much too short to be anyone but yourself.
If you ever find a need to change yourself or be someone else apart from who you are,
just to fit in, just to make someone fall in love with you,
you'd never truly be happy.
Don't you want that someone to love you for who you really are?
Be clad in your fbts and haivanna's, liquideyeliner-less, untamed tresses and all.
And still be able to be in his arms, feeling all the love in the world,
knowing that he loves the one inside of you.
So, be happy my darlings!
p.s Just in case my darlin' friends are worried that i'm losing my appetite because they worry that I may have problems or something of that sort, hence the recent loss of weight. I'm truly alright, (: just too much congee/porridge these few days, haha, oh the cravings of a abso-delectable bowl of hot congee is enough to take my cold away albeit just for a little while. Tried the Atkin's diet? Now, try the CONGEEEEE diet! =) hahahaha.... kidding!
Have a lovely weekend. (:
(many kisses)
Monday, July 21, 2008
10:40 PM
I've had about 6 drafts ever since my last posting. I've come to terms that although it is highly dependent on the blogger, a blog will always serve to be a facade. You keep things that you are afraid that you'd be judged on; You hence, put your best face forward. So, like how Saber (yes darling! it's Saber, not Sabre! haha) Tooth Bunny aptly put it, a blog is a mere act of aggrandizing one's self. So, this will be my last post (shortly after my attainment of an epiphany).
(imagines shocked expressions)
HAHAHAA. kidding! I love mink&moe too much. (: Like how countries have their ecological footprints, I want a place that records the little moments of my life. Keep a diary then, I hear you say. Well, I've always kept a mantra that as long as I keep making a difference in the world one person at a time, whether it's from my posts, my random musings, my laa dee dum, I've done my part on this gravitational sphere. So thee says share, share, share and spread thy love!
Anyway, (: I've been under the weather, rather horribly if I may add. Upper Respiratory Tract Infection, fever and warnings of a impending pneumonia; The rain isn't helping much, especially since i indulge in dancing in the rain, and apparently, the reluctance to see any more people donned in white coats restrains me to do as such. (: So, if I may retract myself from further digression (hahahaa! One of our favourite past times huh!), let me move on to describing my first day in school after 2 days of mc + 2 days of weekends. First 2 periods of Economics was alright, and once physics came, I swear all my wheezing, coughing, (snorting) was enough to scare the dalai lama away. (: Thanks for all the love everyone showed me though, it keeps me going strong so much much loves and many brownie points for everyone! (: So after physics, I was like... greattttt, Human Geog next and time for my presentation. By that time, my throat was so hoarse that any more clearing of the throat would render it a barren canal. (haha!) Guess what? It went more smoothly than I would have expected, although I'd like to apologize to my fellow geog mates for my voice which could have been accounted for as noise pollution! hahaha. After Geog, I swear that all I wanted to do was to catch some shuteye, I was so drowsy by then. Hence, the half day off!
I swear Pearlyn would be the reason for me turning bi, IF I ever go to the other side one day. hahaha, I'm sorry babe though, =( I want kidsss! hahaha, my own kids. (: I'm going to be a proud mama one day!
98 days 08 hours 30 minutes 04 seconds
keep the countdowns coming, for these numbers are the only wake up call that actually work on me. As Pearlyn like to proclaim, I'm going to be a lee kok kok scholar!! (I swear if Mr Lee Kong Chian sees this, I'm so dead = You're so dead)
By the way, that countdown, is to A levels, my fellow slaves of the education system! KEEP UP THE GOOOD WORK! (for the mugger toads) & START DOING WORK! (to everyone else)
Darren told me today, that you can give up everything except your studies for now; you go all out for this thing you call l**e and you end up being nothing. And although I begged to differ, believing in working things out, he made sense. He's my inspiration, and yes, I do miss you Mr Darren T'ng.
And if you, ever chanced upon this,
I'm truly sorry.
Here's to an early sleep without regards of homework or whatsoever. I need my health back! (: And to Ms Max (and all you mugger toads who disregard sleep), pleassseeee get some rest too! =D Don't end up like me. :(
Cogito, ergo sum - I think, therefore I am.
Monday, July 14, 2008
10:40 AM
Intuition fails you when you need it the most,
Intuition allows the wall you've so painstakingly erected to crumble,
Intuition fails you when you need it the most.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
2:07 PM
Top 10 Random musings;
1. Don't try to have a champagne lifestyle on a beer budget
2. Life isn't defined by the number of breaths you take, but the number of moments that took your breath away
3. Make it an ultimate must, with no way out - that's how you get to where you want to
4. Be thankful for the happy memories you've made, but when it's time to move on, don't be afraid to make new ones
5. I hate the fact that people generally take business courses only because they "don't know what else to take" - i don't hate those people, just hate how it shapes peoples' impression of business courses
6. I'm independent as much as I am dependent
7. Thanks to Daryl, I learnt that Mink&Moe is an alliteration!
8. There's more than it meets the eye, i swear.
9. I don't need a hellova party hoard of friends in my life, a few close ones make my day anytime
10. These random musings aren't arranged in order, they're random ;)
Friday, July 11, 2008
10:33 AM
Adapted from Tyki,
His notion on relationships and love strikes a deep chord within me.
Maybe you'd feel it too, after reading this.
"Every relationship has a cycle.
In the beginning, after falling in love with your partner/spouse, you anticipated their call, wanted their touch albeit their idiosyncrasies (unconventional behavior/habit).
Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to do anything. That's why it's called 'falling' in love... you just fall.
People in love sometimes say, 'I was swept off my feet.' Think about the imagery of that expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU.
Falling in love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria (excitement) of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.
The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.
At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, 'Did I marry the right person?' And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when marriages breaks down. People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment.
Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances.
But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it. I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else.
You could.
And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this):
THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT IN FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S IN LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.
SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't 'find' LASTING love. You have to 'make' it day in and day out. That's why we have the expression 'the labor of love.' Because it takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it takes WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work.
Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.
Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger. It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable... you can 'make' love.
Love in marriage is indeed a 'decision'... Not just a feeling.
Remember this always"
Thanks tyki, the world, or at the very least, I, do need a down to earth take on what essentially is the closest thing we have to magic - love.
(:
Got back my results for jcts today, and i passed everything!! =) I didn't even get an S! (big achievement considering the effort i actually put in for this round of exams) My best subject's General Paper, which although, i should feel happy for, but all i do feel (unfortunately) is that it may be a big fat fluke. i mean, from essays that flutuated around high 10's to low 20's, to 30's (upon 50). =O Yea, i'm surprised myself too. Ah well, it might be due to the opportunity to turn my gp essay into one comprising of many economics elements! HAHAA. Next subject was Economics. =)) Though i think that i could have done much much better.
Anyway,
i neeeed to run now cause it's tgif!!!! =DDDDDDD
before, my weekend starts and end in less than a couple of hours and the to do list calls out to me for some attention.
(insert unhappy face here)
(: love, novaaa seth.
Monday, July 07, 2008
11:01 AM
hey daddy, happy youth day to me! can i have a new router? =D
RAHHRAHRHARHAHRAHRHRA.
my router spoilt, so i can't access my wireless at home.
(inserts many many unhappy faces here)
and because of this techo-glitch,
the jct gp essay question on how technology handicaps more than it helps keeps surfacing in my train of thoughts. haha.
so, without the beloved internet,
i started looking around for a new distraction,
SIMS 2 on my mommy's phone!
hahhaa, (:
it's darn waste of time, i'd just lie on my bed for like 3 hours and play non stop.
get soooo bored watching her take half an hour (in sims time, that is) to walk to the toilet.
fall asleep and wake up to play more sims.
great, my life is UBER productive WITHOUT the internet. =O
so i thought i'd rather play sims on the comp which has more applications and all,
so i inserted the (pirated) cd into my desktop (cause mac's being an ass and not accepting it again)
AND, the final bit of the setup asked me to insert the serial number at the back of the cd.
and i realised, mommy threw away the original (fake) cd cover with the (fake, but still usable) serial number.
(insert many many unhappy faces here)
and no prizes for guessing,
i was back on my bed playing. ****2 on the phone again.
HAHAHHA.
great, i've a life!
ANYWAY, just before you think my router's back in motion since, well, i'm blogging right?
you're WRONG.
I literally took a bus all the way to the library to tap on the (i swear, super fast) wireless@sg available there. there's this macair user not too far away from me..
and he's kind of .. cute! =) haha, okay okayyy, back to talking about my (great) life!
anyway, if you dont see me online or blogging for the next few days (no, i'm not going to say WEEKS, it's taboo. wait, oh shit, i just did !!)
just drop me a msg, but since my phone's cranky too,
you can call my hp, (:
that's if i'm not playing sims2, during which i shut off the whole world, HAHA, kidding. (:
mom's at work = sims2's at work= cant play sims2 = left with shitloads of work to do! =D
Anyway, (: moving on to fill you in on what i've been busy with!
Dempsey's the new zouk, yo!
no, i'm not being a twit, it's the new group in facebook i just joined after i lost my dempsey-virginity last friday with p is for pearlyn! (: took a bus from town and trudged up dempsey hill, didn't know we were going up the WRONG hill, so ended up at muthu's curry, HAHAA (:
okay, no, i'm not being a frigging racist. =D
So after going here and there, we found our paradise! Started off at ps cafe, which i swear was gorgeous!
Ended up at Hacienda cause being the music-junkie, i just went to where the music lured. Awesome dj doing his stuff. (: Had an arnold palmer, which was like 0.0000000121212% vodka and the rest was like iced lemon tea. HAHHA, i bet it was like seasons la, and i was like.. bahh, asked the girl if she could help me ask the bartender to make it stronger, and after which, it kind of was better, i think. P had ..... ribena and sparkling water. shit bag lor, asked if we should have shooters, then p was like, nooooooooo, dont want. =( so i'm left with iced lemon tea, and her, ribena! hahaha. =D wthwthwthwth, we're going to conquer the whole of dempsey one bar at a time, HOUSE next! =) bye bye friday evenings!
Totally had this long post i wanted to write on saturday night, alas! the internet broke down, and i'm too hungry to sit here and type out everything, so yeah, hopefully when my router's back in action, i'd type it out, along with the shitloads of posts i owe!!! =)
btw, p, it's..
Alcohol is the anesthesia by which we endure the operation of life. (:
you ALWAYS screw up my quotes one. tsk. =D
OKAY, i shall scoot off, (: work work work today. =)
see you lovelies. (:
*big kisses.
Thursday, July 03, 2008
5:16 PM
haha, ohmymuffins, i just realised that my safari actually allows me to edit the font sizes/colours/types in the blogger window. I initially thought that macbook was being an ass once more by disallowing this and that, but heh! thanks p is for pearlyn! :D
Random musings;
Got back my feesicks paper yesterday and my macroeconomics essay today. Regarding feesicks, hahaha, it was a severe case of underperformance on my part although i should be able to pass after adding cp, mod and all. but still! it's not the marks that i care about, although i'm sinisterly contented with my grades after putting like half a day's of effort in it, and it's not because i'm "lay-zee" (quote:pearlyn), it just was a really bad patch i was going through, which i'm still working through; slowly but surely. MACROECONOMICS ESSAY. I was seriously surprised, (smiles) do hope that my micro and case study which i'd get back tomorrow will help me get a good grade (crosses fingers) for my (don't call me mad, but..) favourite subject. =)
I think my momentum is coming back to me. I'm starting to be diligent (again) in doing my tutorials (for those who think that being the super-geek that i am and that i've been consistently doing my tutorials, you are so wrong! hahaha. confession, i havent been doing the full maths tutorials since.. vectors? hahaha, but heyyy, it's never too late to start right? haha) and i've been trying to snooze earlier! Unlike my usual 2-3 am bedtime, i'm actually sleeping before 12 these few days. However, i think my body clock's still trying to adjust, cause i feel more sleepy in school (note: gp lessons especially) as compared to sleeping at 2am. =O yay! 10 weeks to prelims, let's do this people!!!! leeeekongchian!! *waves.
So, tomorrow's half day and p is for pearlyn's taking mc tomorrow for her bad throat (take care dearie!). SO, instead of resting at home, she decided that we're going to have an outing!! probably going to watch per-neh-loh-pee, HAHA! going to spend more money again, i swear ahhh, p, you're making me bleed quids. but i heart spending time with you. =) And i still think us ordering the exact same thing today for japanese, chicken katsu don without onions, and chawanmushi. at DIFFERENT timings and our choice of mango&oreo for the frozen yoghurt, is darn freaky! (:
I'm frippin' sleepy now, and I think i'm going to get some shuteye, before i go *** tonight. =Dlove, nova seth.
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
7:38 PM
hahahaha,
totally owe another post for hossan leong day out with p is for pearlyn (:
please add it to my (already super) long list of owed posts!
(grins)
SO, anyway,
school started yesterday, (:
i've this bittersweet feeling about school.
somehow, it's better when i'm in school,
but then, when i'm literally in school,
i wish i'm out of school.
hahhaa, yes, the grass is always greener on the other side.
(: unless of course, if there's a cow herd living opposite, heh.
then there wont be anymore grass left! hahahahhaa XD
So far i've gotten back maths ytd and geog today!
I passed maths, which i was utterly shocked at.
because i really didn't deserve it this time round.
but ah well, i'm really thankful for it, and it just motivates me to do better next time round!
=)
totally flunked geog like donutsshit though.
okay, it wasnt suppperrrr bad looking at the whole geog cohort,
but i think that i could have done so much more,
however, considering all the shit that was going on during the week of exams,
i think i really did my best.
studying for your papers one day before,
a few hours before,
the night before,
would render us with extremely low expectations of our grades.
so yea,
so far, my grades have only served as a greater impetus for the fruition of my dream to be the leeeeeekongchianscholar!
=D or just getting my butt into SMU business.
it's the A levels that count, people!
so if you didn't perform as to your normal standard, fret not! (:
your present grades aren't representative of your
future grades.
so put in more effort, change your studying methods or whatever you deem will be more effective
and may you reap the fruits of your labour! *BIG HUG.
cause dreams do come true..
=) i'm running along for dinnnner now!
then off to maths and physics for the night.
love you all. :D
gerald lim is gorgeous.